For Good

I've only started reading Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West by Gregory Maguire the beginning of this month. I also have the Wicked Musical soundtrack on repeat in my iPod.

It's a very witty story: it redefines good and evil, and gives you a view of the paradox that surrounds it. I haven't advanced substantially into the book yet (but I've read enough to know that it's not a children's book - parents beware), but I have heard the whole soundtrack a few times already, so I have an idea of how the story will turn out. One song in particular caught my attention (and caused a sentimental ache in my heart in the process. Hehe): "For Good." It's the 2nd to the last song in the musical. Shows you how sad the ending is. :( I have it on repeat now as I write this.

You can apply this song to friendship or love, or both. It's very sad. Kinda like "I Love You, Goodbye" but in a mutual sense (excuse me while I get a tissue. *sniff*).

Listen to it, please. Listen to the whole soundtrack so that you can better appreciate the story. Listen to the song so that you can hear for yourself the sadness of its melody (sorry about the mushiness, I think it's the hormones). Listen to iiiiittt. :)

Excuse me for now. Magsesenti muna ako..."Because I knew youuu..."

My goal is to be able to watch the musical within the year! Puwede kaya yun? :) Somebody send me tickets to the States...or to London! :)

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For Good
by Elphaba (Idina Menzel) and Glinda (Kristin Chenoweth)

(Elphaba) I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...

(Glinda) I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

(Elphaba) It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

(Glinda) Because I knew you

(Both) I have been changed for good

(Elphaba) And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

(Glinda) But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

(Both) And none of it seems to matter anymore

(Glinda) Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood

(Elphaba) Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood

(Both) Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

(Glinda) And because I knew you...

(Elphaba) Because I knew you...

(Both) Because I knew you...I have been changed for good.

Musing Out Loud

Is it considered tacky for a woman to drink in public by herself?

Those girls in Grey's Anatomy do it all the time at Joe's.

Hmmm.

Hehe. That would be pretty interesting.

Soundtrack of My Life

If a movie of my life was made, this will be it's soundtrack.

Cool. I enjoyed doing this. :D

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RULES:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Media Player, iPod, Winamp etc.)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing.
5. When you go to the next question,press the next button.
6. Don’t lie and pretend you’re cool.
7. When you’re finished, tag some other people to do it!


A. Opening credits:
Can We Talk by Code Red
"Can we talk for a minute
Girl I want to know your name"
It invites the movie-watchers to try to get to know me more, I guess. Haha.

B. Waking up:
Wishful Thinking by Duncan Sheik
"Listen to the waves,
Everything communicates
Will it ever be
Anything more than wishful thinking?"
Very reflective song. Gets the brain cells working very early in the morning.

C. First Day of School:
100% Pure Love by Crystal Waters
"You saw a brand new high, thought that you could fly"
Very perky, very energetic song. Perfect for the first day of school!

D. Falling in love:
I Want You Back for Good by Take That
"Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood"
Hindi bagay. Not really a "falling in love" kind of song. More like a "desperate for you to fall back in love with me" song.

E. First song:
Moon River
"Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see."
Romantic, idealistic song. :)

F. Breaking up:
Shiver by Maroon 5
"I shiver when I hear your name
Think about you but it’s not the same"
You can interpret it differently, if you want.

G. Prom:
Ugly Girl by Fiona Apple
Hey. I didn't look that bad during my prom. Haha.Ok, so there's an ugly duckling storyline going on...

H. Life:
You Sexy Thing by Barry White!
"I believe in miracles
Since you came along you sexy thing."
And then, the ugly duckling becomes a swan? Haha! Parang "She's All That" nyek!

I. Mental breakdown:
For The Love by Drew Sidora
Yes. Love can make you breakdown. I'm not going to contest that! Haha.

J. Driving:
With Him by Babyface
That's the best way to drive. :)

K. Flashback:
Pass You By by Boyz II Men
"A thousand days have passed
And nights gone by"
Live life with no regrets. :)

L. Getting back together:
Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman?
Look up the lyrics on the internet. If you want to get back with a woman, you have got to know these things! Hehe.

M. Wedding:
Never Gone by Backstreet Boys
"Never gone, never far. In my heart is where you are..."
I always knew that these boys would be part of my wedding, in one way or another. Haha.

N. Birth of a child:
Bend and Break by Keane
"Meet me in the morning when you wake up...I'll meet you in the morning when you wake."
Perfeeeeeect!!! Awww. :)

O. Final battle:
Bridge Over Troubled Water
"When darkness comes
And pains is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down."
Dramatic!

P. Death scene:
Wash Away by Vertical Horizon
"His eyes are tainted, staggered is his breath
Oh God, he's addicted. Addicted to death."
Morbid. Pero bagay na bagay!

Q. Funeral song:
The Last Time by Eric Benet
*sniff* Kung di pa kayo umiyak sa burol ko niyan...

R. End credits:
Truth Hurts by Usher
Yeah, it does, but it has to be told! Hence, my life story. Haha.

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Ang galing. Blockbuster ang movie ko. Or kung hindi man, bebenta ang aking OST.
Buwahahaha. :) Fun.

One Simple Act

Yesterday, one day after election day, I found myself looking for the telltale indelible ink on the fingers of the people I encountered. Sadly, most of the people I saw had clean fingers. It disheartened me because it meant that only a few people voted last May 14.

Wait. Scrap "disheartened." I was annoyed. It irked me even more so when I heard my boss criticizing the senators who've made it to the "Magic 12" in the unofficial results. "Ano ba naman ang magagawan nun?" "Puro tanga nanaman ang mamamahala satin." "Walang magbabago sa sistema natin." All that after I heard him say (loudly and proudly) that he wasn't going to vote "kasi para san pa? Mangungurakot at mangungurakot rin ang mga yan."

Ugh. I want to smack him on the head.

While he's saying all of the statements above, I am thinking "Puro tanga ang mamamahala satin kasi marami ring tanga (tulad mo) na walang ginawa para baguhin yon." Nakakainis.

Another post-election incident: I was talking to one of my officemates yesterday about the candidates we voted for. Another officemate of ours passed by (swaggered, is more like it), smirked at us, and proclaimed "wala talaga akong pakialam."

Kung puwede ko lang sha sakalin.

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I expected the youth - our hope for the future - to be all gung-ho about voting. Sadly, most of the young people (teka, considered as "youth" pa ba ako? Haha.) are the ones who are apathetic. I hear them echoing the statements made by the older, more mature people - "Wala namang kuwenta voting system dito sa Pilipinas. Mangdadaya lang yan. Bakit pa kami boboto?"

I know a lot of people who didn't vote. Some, because they weren't able to register. Others, because they didn't want to register. The rest, because they just didn't care. In this day and age, apathy is becoming the most-used excuse. Now that the world is becoming smaller because of technology; now that social problems aren't showing any signs of decreasing; now that we have more opportunities to be educated...Now isn't the time to be detached from everything else. We cannot claim that we are not informed, because the cold, harsh truths are staring at us everywhere we go.

I admit that I am not the most knowledgeable person out there, especially about politics and social issues. But I recognize that for change to occur, I am required to take action. One simple act makes a much clearer statement, and creates more opportunity for change, than not doing anything at all.

Voting is one such act that can initiate change. It is our right. It is our choice. It can change the world, if you believe in it enough.

"I think, therefore I vote." It makes a clear statement that voting takes an initiative to think, and therefore, to act and make a difference.

Halalan 2007

Elections may have a negative connotation for most people. The words cheating, corruption, and bribery usually come to mind.

This year, though, I've chosen to have a more positive outlook towards this year's elections.
I see this as a chance for change. Hope for the future. Improvement!

*sigh*

Let's see what the next few days (or weeks) will bring...


I think, therefore I vote.

It's blue skies ahead for the Philippine government (hopefully)!

My Personal Bubble

I never knew how particular I was about my personal space until recently. A few months back, I started to get really irritable when people here in the office frequently invaded my personal bubble.

I don't really mind if it's in a crowded area, like in the MRT, or in the mall. Of course, that's unavoidable. Here in the office, however, specifically when I'm sitting at my desk, I get very territorial.

Let me illustrate. My desk is about 1.2 meters long, and I am sitting somewhere in the middle of that length. There is approximately 1 meter (2.5 feet) of free space all around my chair. According to the diagram below, that is already a violation of my personal space. But this is Manila, a very populated place, so I can bring down my standards a few meters or so. No sense in being a prude.



So I bring down my personal space standard to 1 meter. That should be enough, right? This is an office, not Divisoria – we are not crammed in here like sardines in a can. But with all this lease-given space, my officemates don't seem to understand the concept of proxemics.

How can I tell my officemates to please stop rolling into my zone? Is it really necessary for them to roll their chairs all the way into my intimate space bubble (yes, less than 1.5 feet, as indicated by the personal space diagram)? Kailangan ba talaga idikit nila yung upuan nila sa upuan ko? As if naman maingay dito sa office. I can hear anyone whisper from 5 feet away. Kailangan ba talaga nilang basahin kung ano man ang nasa computer screen / nasa table ko habang nasa loob sila ng aking zone? Invading my personal bubble is enough, do they have to invade my privacy as well?

Am I being petty? Is it really wrong to hate it when people hover?

I've noticed that my male officemates are usually the ones who violate this. The females, who are naturally more intimate than men, know their boundaries. Strange.

There's an invisible bubble around me. Stay away from it.

AI Results Show (May 2, 2007)

Unang una kong comment...

Puti pala si Robon Thicke.

My gosh. Akala ko African-American sha. Hahaha. Parang hindi bagay yung itsura nya sa boses nya. Para kasi siyang Prince na pinaputi. Wahaha. :) Wala, nagulat lang ako.

Second comment...

Astig talaga yung Idol Gives Back. It's the biggest pop event on TV ever. And they raised almost $70 million to give to Africa and to different communities in the States! They should do something like that here. Pero hindi ata gagana yun dito. Gagawin lang publicity opportunity yun ng mga politika, at mawawala yung inspirational message nya. Boo. Boo to myself, too for not believing that it could work here. Tsk.

Third comment...

Goodbye, Phil. I knew early-on na matatanggal sha ng maaga. Pero maganda yung performance nya kagabi eh. Sayang. Kung kelan pa sha gumagaling eh dun pa sha natanggal. Oh well. Ang ganda nung background song sa tribute video kay Phil. I Stand By You by Carrie Underwood. The same song they used for her video in last week's Idol Gives Back.

Fourth comment...

SHET NAMAN!!! It's between Blake and Chris! Wag namaaaaan. :( Hu. Pero kung papipiliin ako, mas gusto kong manatili si Blake. Please please please, wag sana matanggal si Blake! I'm a Blaker! Hehe. :)

Then...the result...

Aaaaaah! Goodbye Chris Richardson. Cutie-who-looks-short-pero-matangkad-pala. I guess I was kind of expecting it after his performance last night. Between Blake's awesome, original, out of this world performance, and Chris' consistently nasal-y performance, it's expected that Chris would go home. Too bad.

And finally...

Go Blake! Blake and Melinda for top 2! Woot-woo!

Happy Non-Working Holiday

Since it's a holiday and I have a lot of time to blog, this entry will be an assortment of sorts. :D

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I've had a full morning, and it's only 8:00 a.m.

5:45 a.m. – Woke up, abruptly ending my dreams (which, to my recollection, were pretty nice)
6:00 a.m. – Left the house
6:05 – Witnessed the motorcycle in front of me topple over after he tried to take a sharp left.
6:15 – Loaded gas at Shell C5
6:20 – Arrived in Makati
6:25 – Overshot Pasong Tamo, and took a wrong turn into Osmena Highway.
6:35 – Arrived at MLV's house, gave the CD to her dad
6:40 – Drove off.
6:50 – Ordered breakfast at McDonald's Fort Bonifacio drive-thru.
7:30 – Arrived at home. Ate my breakfast.

Wow. Sana ganito lang kadali ang biyahe papuntang Makati araw-araw.

I was planning to sleep once I got home, but the easy drive lifted my spirits a bit, and I am not the least bit sleepy now. Hay.

Will watch Shooter and Spiderman 3 in a couple of hours. Whee. :)

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Food trip!

Roti Mum.

They're not kidding when they say that they have the best coffee buns around.
Ahhhh. So nice. I could get addicted to these. :)

They just opened a branch in Megamall (next to Powerbooks). Try it!

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I've recently been addicted to Hershey's milk chocolate. As in, papapakin ko sa office yung Hershey's kisses, or the chocolate bar. Not good for my figure. And my wallet. But very good for my disposition. Chocolate = happiness.

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Yun lang. :)

Happy Non-Working Holiday!

Statement Retraction

I would like to apologize for the wrong information I posted in my blog about the Grey's Anatomy spin-off.

Sad to say, Sean Faris is not part of the official cast (where the heck did I get that idea anyway? Darn internet spews senseless facts everywhere. Hehe). Sayang. My mind has gotten used to imagining Sean as McHottie in the series. Hahaha. :D

Chris Lowell, however, is in the cast (hurrah!), and I've got pictures to prove it. Siya ata yung resident cutie dun eh. Hahaha. Wow. :)


Check out the other promo pictures here

Music To My Ears

Silent Sanctuary had a gig at Saguijo Makati last night, and I finally had a chance to watch them (lapit kasi sa office! Buti na lang). Haven't been able to watch live band gigs in a long time (the last one being Itchyworms in Aklan), and I forgot how fun it could be. Beer, friends, live music – who could go wrong with that?

Anyway, since I'm in such a Silent Sanctuary high, I'm lengthening and reposting my CD review entry. Enjoy!

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Silent Sanctuary’s new album entitled Fuchsiang Pag-Ibig is a must-have. Sobrang sulit. And the following are the reasons why:

- Ikaw Lamang by Silent Sanctuary has been playing over the radio for several weeks now, and I never tire of listening to it. It's their first single, and the reason why I bought their CD in the first place. The way they incorporate classic instruments (violin and cello) into the contemporary rock sound is pleasantly surprising to the ears.

- Summer Song is a sweet, reggae tune that sounds like sun, sand, and piña coladas are streaming out of your speakers. The notes are light and smooth, and the lyrics are so reminiscent of summer love. This is to be my anthem for Summer 2007. Now all I need is a hammock in a beach setting, and someone to sit beside me. Ahhh. :)

- Another light, fun song is Pink 5ive. The melody is the "bop your head along with the beat" kind, and it tells the story of the elusive girl codenamed "Pink 5ive." It jumpstarts the listener with a bubble-gum happy tune, and then the happiness trails off with a slow, despondent theme. "Mga superhero'y sinungaling din..." Again, a song that showcases opposite ends of the emotional pole. :)

- Technically, “kundiman” is the Philippines’ signature love song, generally expressing the forlorn lament of a faithful lover pining for his beloved (shempre rinesearch ko pa yan). Silent Sanctuary's Kundiman is a love song that gives justice to the technical definition of the term. It is a song which uses a lot of playful lyrics, my favorite of which is "para kang unan / pinapainit mo ang aking tiyan." Hehe. But despite the use of comedic, seemingly silly words to woo the girl in the stanzas, the chorus is bittersweet in its message of devotion: "Hindi ako lalayo / Dahil ang tanging panalangin ko ay ikaw..."

- The phrase “ingat ka” is so commonly used as parting words that the underlying sweetness of its message is overlooked. The song “Ingat Ka” reminds you of that good feeling you get when someone is concerned enough to tell you to take care. It is an unexpected favorite song of mine. I guess part of why I like it is because I would want someone to dedicate this song to me when I leave for graduate studies in the future. Ang sarap kasi makarinig ng "ngiti mong kay ganda / siguradong mamimiss kita" pag aalis ka na, diba? Hehe. :)

- “14” is track number 14 in a CD with a total of 12 songs (Go figure!). Like the rest of the album, it’s sweet, it’s sad, and it rocks! The lyrics are nicely written, and knowing what “14” actually means gives it an extra kilig factor. ;) It’s the kind of song you would want to sing (with feelings, dapat) when you’re sad, frustrated, or feeling sentimental (pag gusto mong mag-emote, kumbaga...).

- One of my guilty-pleasures is Rebound, a poppy-happy sounding song with an undertone of melancholy and desperation (which is what love is, really). The way the strings are introduced right after the line "o kay bilis naman magsawa ng puso mo" makes the heart soar and sink at the same time. Beautiful contrast.

And that's what Silent Sanctuary is all about (for me, anyway). A band of beautiful contrast. Stringing together pleasure and pain; singing about the sweetness of love and the agony of it.

It's like being pulled simultaneously in opposite directions (kasiyahan, kalungkutan), and loving every minute of it. Astig talaga. :)

Buy the album. Listen to the songs (especially the ones I mentioned above). I guarantee you'll be asking for more.

*P.S. Thanks to the band for signing my CD cover at the Saguijo gig! Hope you have more Makati gigs in the future! :)

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Virginia Gun Massacre

This is such a tragedy.

Why do acts of violence as extreme as this happen? What's sad is, the people who got killed didn't do anything to warrant this kind of death. They were killed because of what? Because a stranger couldn't take the pressure? Because their classmate was crazy enough to suddenly want to kill anything in his path? Because they decided to attend class that morning to learn? They were killed simply because they were at the wrong place at the wrong time.

I really don't understand why some people are driven into this kind of "killing spree" insanity. I don't know the exact facts, but I'm pretty sure that another US school shooting happened several years back. What could be the constant factor here? The US educational system is too difficult? Teachers expect too much from their students? Peer pressure? Bullies? The need for attention? One last hurrah – the "I-think-I'll-go-kill-as-many-people-as-I-can-before-killing-myself" kind of hurrah? I'm sure the psychologists around the world are having a field day trying to figure out the psychological reason behind all this.

Whatever the reason may be, the harsh truth is, 33 people are dead. I don't know them personally, but I really feel for the family and friends they left behind. Imagine thinking that your kid is at school and then finding out later that day that he was gunned down inside the classroom – the last place on earth you'd expect to be remotely dangerous. It's crazy. :(

Are there any more safe places left in the world?

Bagong Pag-Asa

"Prince William and Kate Middleton have broken up."

Sad, sad news. Kawawa naman si Kate. She probably can't wallow in depression like normal broken-hearted girls, what with the paparazzi swarming around her after this piece of news. Boo.

It must be hard to be criticized for not being good enough for a Prince...And then, once you've broken up, you get criticized for being daft enough to let a catch like that go. Tuh. That has to suck.

On the other hand, this means Wills is single again. And I'm sure a lot of Princess wannabes are secretly rejoicing and plotting their ascent to the British throne. :P

Hmmm.

I knew it was a mistake to forego my graduate studies in UK this year. Hehe.


Cute pic. Just had to post it. :)

Spin-Off!

What do you get when you cross my favorite characters from Grey's Anatomy and Life As We Know It?

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Addison Montgomery's spin-off TV series!

(which might be entitled Private Practice. A play on Addison's specialty in obstetrics and gynecology, perhaps?)

Hurray!

Kate Walsh's character, Addison Montgomery is the perfect person (out of all the Grey's Anatomy cast) to lead a TV series: beautiful, elegant, headstrong. I've always liked her. McDreamy is a McIdiot anyway. Ellen Pompeo, who plays Meredith Grey in Grey's Anatomy, is reportedly pissed that Addison gets her own spin-off (/me tries to suppress evil laughter).

Chris Lowell (who also plays Piz in Veronica Mars) is goofy-cute. Kinda geeky, kinda awkward sometimes. But a cutie, nonetheless. I love his character in Veronica Mars (and in Life As We Know It, of course)...I wonder if he'll be typecast as the goofy intern in the spin-off show.

Sean Faris is hot. Younger, taller, prettier Tom Cruise. Eeeeee. He could be the show's McHottie. Wahahaha. I was watching Sleepover in Star Movies the other day (out of boredom, I swear), and I was pleasantly surprised to see Sean (close kami) as the lead male opposite Alexa Vega (of Spy Kids fame). The story was kinda shallow, very unlikely to happen (as most HS romantic comedies are), but very kilig. HS hunk falls for geeky freshman. Woooh. *sigh* :)


The show is set to air on May 3, 2007.

Aaaaahh. I can't wait. :)

Dream on.

I was wrong all along. I don't want to be an architect. I don't want to study.

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I want to be a Victoria's Secret Fashion Show model.

I want to be like Heidi Klum, Gisele Bundchen, Alessandra Ambrosio, Adriana Lima and Karolina Kurkova! Wheee.

Heidi Klum (in flashing underwear)

Gisele Bundchen (and JT)


Alessandra Ambrosio (zexy!)


Adriana Lima (cute)

Karolina Kurkova (supermodel)

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*poof*

Dream on, Les. Hahaha!

Some people are just born to be model-gorgeous and glamorous.
I was born to just dream about it. *sigh*

Does anyone have the videos of VSFS 2000, 2001 & 2002? Pahingi.

Stress

Master Yoda says that I didn't make the right decision in choosing the promotion over graduate studies.

Isaiah the Magic 8 Ball says otherwise.

I, on the other hand, am on the fence about it. It's strange, because I made a decision already, I shouldn't be anywhere near any kind of fence.

I woke up today with a sore throat and a fever, apparently an effect of extreme stress and dehydration. The thoughts running through my head:

1. Ang init.
2. Shit. Sabi ko kay Sir Jojo papasok ako ngayon...Baka hanapin nya ako.
3. (after checking my office mail account) Argh. May teleconference sa Monday.
4. Kailangan ko magpagaling. Bawal magkasakit. Kailangan ko pumasok.
5. Kahit may sakit ako, papasok parin ako. May deadline sa Friday eh.
6. Kaya ko ba to???

I just realized that I will be living like this (early mornings, late nights, lack of sleep, lack of nourishment, constant stress, no social life) for the next year or so. Now I understand the roboticness (hehe. word inventor) of my boss. I used to criticize him for being such a workaholic. We even gave him a Click VCD for Christmas just to give him a hint. And - horror of horrors - I am starting to become like him.

Not good.

And the worst part is, this is just the beginning.

What the hell did I get myself into?

The Unexpected

"Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations. Because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing, still. The expected is just the beginning; the unexpected is what changes our lives."
-from Grey's Anatomy

I have had a run-in with the unexpected this week. It bowled me over, and I'm betting that it will change my life, if I let it.

I was accepted into UCL, and the school year is slated to start this September. I have been getting ready, psyching myself up to face the cold (freezing!) weather. I've refrained from buying tank tops for this summer, and I've started to buy winter clothes instead. For the past few months, I have been anticipating this event.

But that's not even the unexpected part yet.

A day before my birthday, the CEO of the firm I work for gave me some very big news. He has hand-picked me to head a new project in Dubai. Out of all the 120+ employees, he chose me to be the project architect. That's pretty big, considering that at 25, I'll be the youngest PA in the office, and I'll be managing an overseas project. No, I won't be based in Dubai, but I'll be attending meetings there a couple of times this year. I've never been there before, I've never headed a project before (at least, not one this big!), so this is a great opportunity.

I had to decide (he gave me a 4-day deadline to decide!) whether to take on this project, or to continue with my graduate school plans. It was a pretty tough decision to make, because they are both such great opportunities, that it would be really such a waste to let one of them go.

Which one do you think is the better option?
Which one do you think I picked? :)

Sweet Surprise

I found these lying on my bed when I got home from work tonight.
Thanks to Mia and Tina for this unexpected gift.
How you achieved this from 5000 miles away, I don't know.
Ang galing. Ang sweet. Nagulat ako!
Naiyak din ako, promise. Hehe. :')

I love you both! You are the sweeteeeeest! :) *hug*
*mwahmwahmwah*

Gusto Ko To!

I haven't been feeling very nice these past few weeks (the whole of February to be exact). I dunno why I'm so irritable/depressed/moody/sensitive for this month. I'm assuming I'm experiencing what's called the "Birthday Blues" -- also known as the condition that one acquires when one expects too much from other people. Bad. Very bad. :(

Since I've started on a selfish note, let me pull out all the stops and blatantly list down what I want for my birthday. Time to look greedy. Whoopee.

My Birthday Wishlist

(In no particular order...)

• Laptop bag (for a 15" laptop). Hopefully with padding and lots of pockets (to contain my mouse, power cord, etc.) Preferrably white, khaki or army green.
• Silent Sanctuary's new album. Niiice. :)
• Cool shades for summer! (My sister knows the style I like...Parang classic Chanel sunglasses).
• Silver/Silver-gold necklage with a nice pendant ("L," "Les," or a cute symbol - gem accents are very much welcome).
• A nice thumb ring. Or any sort of finger ring, as long as it's not a wedding ring (hehe. Not yet, anyway). Something I can wear everyday.
• Graphic tee from Team Manila (I'm size Medium-Large).
• Bench tee w/ the words "dedma" printed in front (White shirt w/ red letters). I've seen this shirt once, 3 years ago. On sale at that museum near BSP along Roxas Blvd. Hehe.
• Nice bikini for summer (*ehem* Calling on my seastarr).
• Body Shop Cheek Tint and those Bronzer Balls (is that what they're called? Panget pakinggan eh. Hehe).
• Whipped foundation.
• Digital Camera (Canon Digital Ixus, please)!
• iPod Video or iPod Nano. My iPod is dead. I need a new one. :(
• New jeans (yung hindi bitin).
• Brown flip-flops -- este -- tsinelas. (I'm size 8 1/2 to 9)
• Black/white sandals. 1-2 inch heels; bagay sa kahit ano.
• Messenger boy cap (army green or khaki).
• Trip to Boracay. Or Hong Kong.
• A pug puppy. Can anyone give me a dog to love? :(
• Beanie babies.
• And don't get me started on the books I want. It warrants a separate (and very long) blog entry. Just let me loose inside a Fully Booked store (with an appropriate amount of cash). Thank you very much.
• A nice, sweet, well-thought of surprise. Surprise me. Please. I need to cry happy tears for a change. This Birthday Blues thing has taken my tear ducts hostage.

The Holiday

"I have found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said, "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought.

I love this movie.

Yes, it's all about losing love, finding it in the end, and laughing and crying about it in between. Great characters. Great lines. I. LOVED. IT.

Kate Winslet's character made being tragic look so good. Hearing her spiel (see below) gave me a heart achy feeling because everything she said was so true. Being so dramatic, so tragic, and heartbroken is so romantic, it made me miss feeling that way.

Hah. Not really. Not quite. :D

"It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

Ack! I bet everyone (well, every girl - including me - at least) in that movie theater thought of that as their line. I'm sure you, my dear reader, are thinking that it's your line, too.

Weirdly enough, the nice thing about being so tragic and heartbroken, is the pain. It's the kind of pain that wrenches your gut, squeezes your heart, and makes you hurt in places that you never knew existed within you. I was addicted to that kind of pain, once. I was afraid to move on and let go of it because it consumed me for so long that I forgot how to be myself without it. I held on to the feeling of it, because it made me feel real -- just like how being in love makes you feel alive, pain has this uncanny way of reminding you that you exist.

Jude Law's character is a lot like Hugh Jackman's character in Kate and Leopold: a man that cannot possibly exist! He's good-looking, charming, bookish and intelligent, sensitive (how cute is it that he's a weeper? Haha) and he has s British accent. He's that and a lot of other things (I can't disclose everything as it will spoil the movie for you). An excerpt from a review of The Holiday: "The main draw to the film is the chemistry between the stars. Diaz and Law are so cute together you realize it really is a fantasy, but you want to believe it, because it feels good." Ahhh. So TRUE.

There are so many things in life that you want to believe just because they make you feel so good (love, of course, is the most obvious example). Some even force themselves to believe it, even when it starts to hurt -- because they so desperately want to go back to the time when it felt good.

"Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she's no good, you ignore it. And every time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you."

*sigh* This is me being sappy. :)

I want a DVD just so I can watch it over and over again (without paying 120 bucks. Haha), and so I can hear those amazing lines. Somebody give me the complete script! Ahhh! :)

You Wouldn't Like Me Today

Everybody's been acting really pissy towards me today, and I am so sick of it.

Aaaaarrrrggghhh. *sigh* :'(

Random depressing thoughts:

· People assume that I will react in a certain way, that I am thinking of a certain thought, or that I am feeling a certain way, and all of that assuming undermines my real emotions, my real thoughts and my real actions. I know that I am a predictable person, and that my emotions are so easy to read, but I wish people would just have faith that I can go beyond what they perceive I am capable of.

· When you know a person so well, it's often hard to have faith in them, not because you don't trust them to do the right thing, but because you are so used to them doing just the opposite.

· I sometimes wish that I weren’t an adult, just so I could give up on things, and people wouldn’t think that I have shirked my responsibilities.

· I am absorbing so much negativity from the people around me that my heart feels like it's bleeding itself to death.

· I really wish I could tell my boss that I don't feel like going to work tomorrow because I'm emotionally drained, among other things. "Sir, di po ako papasok bukas. Gusto ko kasi magmukmok sa bahay."

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Ano ba. Hindi naman full moon. It’s not that time of the month. Then why do I feel so "dark and twisty?" :( Yuck. I think I'm channeling Meredith Grey. Hehe.

Feeling angry.confused.guilty.tired.sad. :(

Standing Up Straight

Yesterday I skipped worked to get my spine aligned. 3 hours of a therapist pushing and prodding my vertebra into the center.

Turns out that my left pelvic bone was misaligned, and my spine had a small curvature (it looked like the letter 'C.' Ugh. Nasty). And my legs weren't aligned. My right leg was longer than the left by 3 centimeters.

It was pretty cool...and effective, I think. My posture has improved considerably. Before this session, I couldn't keep my back straight while sitting or standing. Now, it actually hurts to try to hunch over. Ok, so my back isn't straight as a rod yet, but I don't hunch as much as before. 2 centimeters lang, at most. Hehe. And my legs are now perfectly aligned. So I'm genuinly 5'6" on both feet. Haha.

The annoying thing is, I have to sleep on my back as much as possible, or else my spine will just go back to how it was. I had to quell my urge to roll over and hug my pillow (I sleep in the fetal position). Argh. And I have to refrain from crossing my legs.

I have to do some self-help exercises here at home, and I have to go back for a maintenance session. But it was worth it, I think. There's some slight discomfort, but the spino-therapist said that my bone and muscles are still getting used to this new arrangement. Yeah. Me too. Hehe.

My Dream Book
For 2007, I hope to fill this pretty notebook with all the things I want to do, all of my goals, and all of my aspirations. Whee.

7 Things

Got this from Anton's blog. Hurray for surveys.

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Seven things I want to do before I die:
1. Be an honor student.
2. Get married.
3. Have kids. Twins, hopefully!
4. Teach in U.P.
5. Design my dream house (and have it built!).
6. Travel around Europe.
7. Put up an animal shelter.

Seven things I cannot do:
1. I cannot do a split.
2. I cannot sneeze with my eyes open? Hehe
3. I cannot pass by a mirror without checking my reflection in it. Hehe. Vain.
4. I cannot hold good posture for more than a few minutes. Kuba na ako. Wah.
5. I cannot go up to my boss to tell him that I think he's a dickhead. Hehe.
6. I cannot stop spending on food. ("Bukas nalang ako magdadiet." Hehe.)
7. I cannot think of any more interesting things to add to this list.

Seven things that attract me to a boy:
1. Marunong magdala. :D
2. Confident enough to act silly in public.
3. The smile.
4. Intelligent conversationalist (enough to get me to talk. I'm shy. Haha).
5. No drama! I have enough of that on my own, thank you very much.
6. Nice, strong arms that are good for hugging me. :)
7. Smells good. :)

Seven things that I say most often:
1. Ano baaaa?!
2. Wow.
3. Shit.
4. Crap.
5. Tumaba ba ako?
6. Ang taba ko na.
7. Diet ako eh.

Seven books I love to read:
1. Harry Potter books
2. A Series of Unfortunate Events
3. Griffin and Sabine trilogy (anything by Nick Bantock, actually)
4. The God of Small Things (I lost my copy, though! Wah!)
5. Warrior of the Light by Paulo Coelho
6. The Other Boleyn Girl by Philippa Gregory
7. Pugad Baboy. hehe.

Seven movies I could watch over and over again:
1. Love Actually
2. My Best Friend's Wedding
3. You've Got Mail
4. Princess Bride
5. Finding Nemo
6. Monsters Inc.
7. Father of the Bride

Seven people I'm tagging to do this survey:
1. My sister
2. Leni (ikaw ang madalas magcomment dito eh! Thank you! haha)
3. Anyone else who's reading this right now
4. Anyone who loves answering surveys as much as I do
5. Anyone who hates answering surveys (give it a try!)
6. Anyone who's bored
7. Anyone! Answer this!

Grey's Anatomy

I have been watching my Grey's Anatomy DVDs, and I am hooked. It's weird that normal people like me (yes, I am normal) can relate to the lives of surgeons (they are awesome, by the way. Kudos to all the great surgeons of the world. Hehe), but it is so easy to get emotionally involved with this show, with its characters.

Watching the show per episode really helps you get to know the characters, their lives, their quirks, their laudable traits, and most especially their annoying ones. I have sympathized with them, empathized with them, disliked them, shouted at them for doing stupid things, and cheered for them when they attempt to rectify their mistakes.

It is obviously a show revolving around the narrator, Dr. Meredith Grey, hence the title "Grey's Anatomy." But it hasn't been Meredith's show lately. Well, it actually hasn't been hers ever since season 1 ended. Ever since McDreamy chose to stay with his wife, Meredith Grey has gone from poor victim to needlessly desperate to pathetic whore to psychotic neurotic. Argh. Her whining and her lisp annoys me sometimes. The weird face she makes when she cries (wails) annoys me a lot.

Ellen Pompeo is nice and all, and I'm sure she's an ok actress, but too much of her is...well, annoying. Especially when she's playing emotionally wounded Meredith Grey, who feels sorry for herself most of the time. I know heartbreak is devastating, but she's a surgeon, for goodness' sake, I wish she would just suck it up.

She even expects McDreamy to leave his wife for her. How selfish is that? And how annoying is it that he actually favors her? Why the heck does he love Meredith over his wife? There should be Team Addison tshirts made, and I'll be one of the first to buy one. If you watch the show religiously, then you will understand why.

Izzy is beginning to go crazy as well. I guess that's what a medical internship does. I know people do stupid/crazy things for love, but Grey's Anatomy has proven that surgeons do "stupid" and "crazy" magnified a hundred times. And that's saying something for people who are supposedly smarter than most of us.

Hay. I get too emotionally involved with the shows I watch on TV and in the movies. Maybe it compensates for the lack of drama in my life. And that's a good thing. :) So I can cry and bitch all I want about the dramas which do not involve me, and I can emerge from it to live my real life. Yay.

Hard Gay and Fathers Day (with subtitles)

My current YouTube addiction. Haha. This guy is so funny, and obviously not gay, which makes his character even funnier.

If you like this video (Hard Gay - Father's Day), search for even funnier videos on YouTube.

I personally like the Ramen and the TOMY toy episodes the best. But there are tons more I haven't seen yet, so...:P

Say, say, say...Hard Gay...Hoooo! :D

Hilarious. :D

What's In Store for 2007?

It has been 2 weeks into the new year, and I haven't really sat myself down to plan my life for 2007. I really should get started, though. Bleurgh. :P

New Year's Resolutions:

1. Get to work early (as in, 8:30 a.m.!) - I've been coming late to work (as in 30 minutes to an hour, late) since July of 2006. I'm just not a morning person. Blah. But for the past week into the new year, I've been consistently on time to work. Hurrah. Let's see how long this will last...Hehe.

2. Eat healthier - Now this is a bit tricky. I'm a natural eater - "natural" meaning that I eat whatever I crave, whenever I crave it. I've been trying to control my carb intake (I'm a voracious carb eater. I loveLOVElove carbs), and I've been staying away from junk food (*sniff* I miss Ruffles). 19 days into the New Year and I broke this resolution. Boo to me.

3. Drink more fluids - On the average, I only drink 4 glasses of water a day: one per meal, and one more glass stretched out during the day. Yep. Very unhealthy. Reason? Tinatamad akong kumuha ng tubig sa water dispenser, at tinatamad akong mag-CR. Hehe. This year, I hope to be more hydrated, for the sake of my skin, and my internal health. Hehe. :)

4. Be thrifty. - I aim to save at least 50% of my monthly salary. 60% if I can really put my mind into it. And I will put all of my savings into worthy investments. :) High five!

That's it, for now. Through these 4 resolutions, I aim to improve different aspects of my life: professional, health, social and financial. They all inter-connect together anyhow. :) Hehe. Good luck to me!


Things To Do:

1. Design Greenfields house! Look for inspirational images! Get started on the concept! Impress parents! Hehe. My first house project is my family's house. Well, my parent's retirement house daw. I have to finish this before I leave this August.

2. Get my room renovation over and done with! I so want to fix my room: to get all of my precious books, my shot glass collection, my Architectural Record magazines and my picture frames into nice shelves; to have a study table that I could actually use; and to have a really nice, and very functional bedside table.

3. Fix UK stuff. Confirm my place in UCL. Apply for accommodations. Apply for a visa. Get required books. Actually get the guts to do all of the above.

4. Arrange nice vacation for me, Mark and our friends. We have to have an out-of-Luzon trip during Mark's summer, and before I leave. More than one, if time and money permits it. :)

5. Think of a way to celebrate my birthday this year. Hmmm.

Ah. I'm sure I have lot more things that I have to do. Thinking of them gives me a headache. But they're all very exciting, very new things, so it's a happy headache. Haha. If there is such a thing.

Hurrah for 2007!

Grow already!!!

AAAAARGH.

I can't wait for my hair to grow out!!!

It's currently in a very alanganin stage where it curls in every which direction it wants! And the bangs aren't looking too good, either: it looks really weird because I have wisps of tikwas hair that are shorter than the rest of my tikwas hair. I look like Farah Fawcett with a very bad hair day.

And recently, I have bad hair days every single day! Let's just say that I would rather keep all of my holiday celebration pictures to myself. Hay.

ARGH. Grow already!

PARK(ing) Day

Tina sent this link through the arki2004 yahoogroups. Verrry interesting. :)

PARK(ing) is an investigation into reprogramming a typical unit of private vehicular space by leasing a metered parking spot for public recreational activity.

We identified a site in an area of downtown San Francisco that is underserved by public outdoor space and is an ideal, sunny location between the hours of noon and 2 p.m. There we installed a small, temporary public park that provided nature, seating, and shade.

Our goal was to transform a parking spot into a PARK(ing) space, thereby temporarily expanding the public realm and improving the quality of urban human habitat, at least until the meter ran out.

I think it would be great if someone here in the Philippines could do something like that...as a personal project, a school project, or even a company-sponsored one. It's a very simple, yet very inspired idea. :) I'd do it if anyone else is interested in doing it with me. :) The MMDA will probably be breathing down our backs, though. But that's part of the challenge too, right?

A few groups around the world have taken the big step and have used this PARK(ing) project as their inspiration for their own projects. Others who have PARK(ed):







John Gilbert Architects

Glasgow, Scotland

RYF Organization

Trapani, Sicily

Santa Monica Rec. & Parks Commission

Santa Monica, California

Hello? Calling out to U.P. College of Architecture! Hehe. :)

Check out the VIDEO TRAILER as well as the PICTURES. Their website also has a how-to file to help out aspiring PARK(er)s. :)

Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again

Dearest MacMacky,

I miss you.

It's been (almost) 2 months since you've been gone, but I can still vividly picture you in my mind as if you're still here. Sometimes, I even half-expect to see you sleeping on the floor beside my bed, or to see you panting and slobbering everywhere. :)

It's really hard to forget you, you know. It hurts most especially in the morning as I leave for work; and at night when I get home. Up til now, my days never seem to be complete without you: No more slobbery-happy face to see me off in the mornings; no more slobbery-happy face to welcome me at night. :(

I was at Eastwood City tonight, and I got to see some people with their pet dogs, walking around the mall. I always planned to bring you there before. You would've loved to walk around and pee everywhere you wanted to. And I could just imagine you backing away from the escalator, as you were always afraid of heights. Hehe. I'm really sorry that I wasn't able to bring you there...or to Tiendesitas...or to the U.P. Acad Oval. That would've been fun, eh?

Up til now, I still cannot understand why you are gone. I admit that there are times when I am angry at God for taking you away, especially when He knew that I explicitly prayed for your long life and your health; especially when He knew how much I loved you. He's really unfair sometimes, isn't He. :(

I guess people don't understand why I still get so depressed over you. There are times during the day when I would miss you all of a sudden: fleeting moments that leave behind a large amount of pain. And the biggest factor for my depression is guilt: I still blame myself, even if everyone tells me I shouldn't. I can't help feeling this way...I'm responsible for your life; that should ultimately make me responsible for your death as well. :(

Losing 2 dogs in a span of one month doesn't exactly put me in the best light. People either think that I am very unfortunate, and they will sympathize with me; or they think that I did not do a very good job of taking care of you and Petunia. It breaks my heart when people say "Baka naman di mo inaalagaan" (and there are people who have said that to my face). I get hurt because it undermines my love for the 2 of you, and because I'm afraid that some part of it might be true; that maybe it's my fault that you and Petunia are gone.

:'(
*sigh*

Macmackyboyboyboyboy, there are SO many things that I want to say to you: I'm sorry. I wish you were here. I miss you. I love you. I hope you and Petunia are happy there in doggie heaven. I hope you have enough shoes to chew, and enough trees to pee on. :) I hope you know that I did try to take care of you the best way I could...

I hope that someway, somehow, you could hear all of these thoughts running through my head, and that you could understand them. I'm sure that you and Pretty Petunia are in a better place because you are such good good doggies. :) Mmmwah. Amishoo.

Wish that you could've spent this New Year's with us. You'd probably be hiding under your chair, and Petunia would probably be barking up a frenzy...but at least you'd be there.

Watch it!

I watched the video (see entry below) again tonight. Wala lang, I just wanted to.

Naiyak nanaman ako. Hehe. I don't even know the couple (Andrei and Minerva!) personally, but I could see all of the love they have for each other, bursting out of that 3++ minute video. *sigh*

The song says it all: LOVELY.
(to those reading this post right now: WATCH IT! And tell me what you think!)

I wish my (future) on-site video is as touching, and as inspiring. :) Aaaah.

/me goes into senti-daydreaming-mode again...

**If you wish to see more inspiring/romantic/sweet/wow wedding videos, visit http://jasonmagbanua.com. He rocks! :)

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Lovely

by Michelle Tumes

You're the sweet dreams that soothe me

When I can't fall asleep

You're the field in the middle of the city

When I'm rushing by at the speed of light

You're the strong resolution when I find no peace

You're the church bells ringing in the evening

When all is quiet You whisper comfort

That lifts my heart

I get so weak

Chorus: Ooh You're lovely, lovely
You're the center of my universe
A thousand times I look around me and I find
Ooh You're lovely, lovely
You're the center of my universe
A million ways could not explain
You're lovely

You're the soft words that touch me

When I just can't speak

You're the breeze on the ocean in the morning

Reminding me to greet the day

You're the flowers I remember seeing in Italy

Colors through a golden haze

Bright and radiant, soft and fragrant

In the noon day sun, it makes me sing

Chorus

I understand there may be grief

And there may be pain

But I'm aware You blind the darkness

With Who You are

Because...

Chorus

Lovely

(Click image to watch video)

I've been addicted to Jason Magbanua's website for the past week, and I've been viewing the videos he has done for weddings. So his fee is a little bit steep; but his videos are brilliant, and the other videographer's works (that I've seen so far) aren't up to par. I'll definitely be saving up some moolah so that I can hire him as my wedding videographer (for the far far future). Yay.

This is my favorite video, so far. I loveLOVElove the song...very romantic. :) *sigh*

Elf Yourself!

If you're feeling like a Scrooge this Christmas season, I know of the perfect website to cheer you up.

http://www.elfyourself.com

You can turn yourself into an elf, just for kicks! Or you can turn other people (yung mga gusto mong pagtripan) into elves, and laugh at them all day long. Heehee.

HI-larious. :D

Click HERE to see the one that I did of K-Fed. Wahahaha.

Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood

Man, this song is F-I-E-R-C-E!!! *roar*
Go Carrie! :)

Before He Cheats
Carrie Underwood


Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky.
Right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink
cause she can't shoot whiskey.
Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick,
showing her how to shoot a combo.
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats.
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing somewhite-trash version of Shania karoke
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"
and he's thinking that he's gonna get lucky
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo.
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might have saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats.
Oh, you know it won't be on me!
Ohh... not on me.

Insomniac

It's 4:12 a.m., and I can't sleep. This is really weird, considering that I have been out drinking last night and my head feels like it's filled with lead. I'm thinking about so many things, and my brain doesn't seem to want to rest. Boo. I really should learn to stop worrying too much.

One of the things I'm getting all wound up about: Graduate school.

Two weeks ago, I had a telephone interview for one of the courses I applied to at UCL. The course director told me right then and there (after interviewing me for an hour!) that he was recommending me for admission into his course. He said that he thought my answers were good (bola skills from U.P. do come in handy), and that I would fit nicely into the course. Yay. So I'll be receiving the offer for admission anytime soon.

Also, I submitted an essay for the other UCL course I had applied to (as requested by the course director). No word from their department yet. Maybe they didn't like what I wrote (about indoor environmental quality. Blah). 2000 words of technical hoohah. At least I learned a lot while researching for that shiteous essay.

I also got accepted into the University of Sydney just last September. The application process for that was pretty quick, though. I submitted the application form, along with other requirements (diploma, transcript, IELTS result etc), and I received a firm offer of admission ONE WEEK after I sent it out through FedEx. That's it? Go figure.

But that doesn't matter anyhow, because I'm leaning more towards UCL. I haven't even received my admissions letter yet, and I can visualize myself roaming the streets of London, all bundled up, blowing steam out of my mouth. Whee. I am going to freeze to death in that place. It's weird that I'm looking forward to that.

Is it crazy that I'm prepping myself for this trip even before I have even confirmed it? I'm stocking up on winter coats, and they're only gathering dust in my closet (when would I be able to wear a (faux)fur-lined coat here in Manila?!); I'm compiling a "leaving on a jet plane" playlist on my iPod (Makita Kang Muli, Don't Forget to Remember Me, etc. just to give you a preview. Harhar).

I haven't been away from my family for more than a week. I have never lived away from home in all my 24 years. How the hell do I expect to survive living in a foreign country, all by myself, for a whole frickin' year?!?! I must be crazy.

I have only been an average student in college. Not even close to honors. And I procrastinate to death. How in the world will I go through graduate school?? I must be delusional. I had better switch myself to *nerd* mode for a year.

10 months away, and I'm having an anxiety attack.

It's Here!

Dell Inspiron E1505
....
Isn't she beyootiful? :) and she's aaaaall mine. *sigh* :)

The Other Boleyn Girl

They're making a Hollywood adaptation of Philippa Gregory's The Other Boleyn Girl.



Yay.

Natalie Portman is playing the part of Anne Boleyn.
Scarlett Johansson is playing Mary Boleyn (the other Boleyn girl, of course).
...and Eric Bana as Henry VIII.

I'm not sure whether I like the casting choices...while reading the book, I always pictured Mary as the smaller sister; Scarlett Johansson is anything but small. :P Anne Boleyn is the evil bitch/slut/temptress...can Natalie Portman pull that off? Aaaand, Henry VIII is definitely not as hot as Eric Bana, especially at the end of the book (movie) where he supposedly ages and gets really fat and DOM-ish. Hahaha.

Lovelovelove the book. Hope I'll love the movie, too.

It's just not the same anymore...

It's been a long while since I last updated this blog. October 4th, as indicated in my previous entry below.

How I wish I could go back to that day...or to any point before October 11, 2006.

I know it's futile to try to change the past. But I just want to change 2 things. Please let me change 2 things...

Please let me go back to the time when MacMacky and Pretty Petunia were still alive.

Please. :'(

I MISS THEM SO MUCH, IT HURTS.