Hulog ng Langit

This afternoon, I attended one of the free talks organized by the BAFI team of the Mind Museum. The speaker was Dr. Margie Holmes, and the topic was "Science and Emotions: Race for Love." She attempted to explain the reason people act the way they do around certain people (people they love); how a mother's way of rearing her children can affect their disposition towards others when they're older. She answered questions on love and sex, such as "is there a connection between religious belief and the level of sexual satisfaction?" and "Does 'The One' really exist?"

Instead of comforting me by answering the questions on love that have been swimming around in my head these past weeks, the talk further confirmed that this abstract theory called 'love' is something that continues to evade my understanding.

Needless to say, I left the event with damp spirits (and it didn't help that it was raining, with matching lighting and thunder pa!). I've been feeling a lot negative lately. I guess after the high that was my 30th birth month (epic party at Relik and my fabulous birthday trip to Melbourne!), everything else seemed so BLAH. I was expecting the momentum to continue when I got home, but everything kinda slowed down, and it brought my mood down, too.

After the talk, I started to walk home, but the rain started to come down harder, so I sought refuge in the nearest 7-11. After 5 minutes of wandering around the aisles, I decided to just make a run for it. I was already feeling dejected after that talk on love, and I felt even more helpless, being stuck in a friggin' 7-11.

I was already preparing myself for the rain, but the moment I stepped out of the store, I saw someone I knew walking towards 7-11 with an umbrella! Perfect timing! Talk about "hulog ng langit." Haha. Immediately, my spirits were up, and I was smiling all the way home (under the borrowed umbrella). It really felt like an intervention from God.

I know that it was just a silly little umbrella, but I think it was also God's way of reminding me that He does answer our prayers. He gives us what we need, at the moment we really need it. In that moment of jadedness / bitterness / hopelessness / dejection, God knew that I needed a reminder of how He has everything under control.

I should not let my negative thoughts eat up my hope. God will give me an umbrella. Someday. :)