Rainy mondays are CRAP.

Ang panget PANGET PANGET ng araw na 'to.

I felt really pathetic. I felt angry, sad and scared all within one day.

It was hell day at work.
Our group didn't make our deadline.
One of my groupmates and I are not on good terms. (Ewan ko sayo. Sayang ang effort!)
I had OT till 10 p.m. (when I had planned to leave at 7:30!)
When I left the office, I thought: "Finally. I can go home and relax."

But fate had other plans for me.

Wala akong masakyan na FX.
Lahat ng taxi na dumadaan may sakay.
And aside from those 2 modes of transporation, I didn't know how else to go home.

I ended up standing stupidly by the side of the road for 45 minutes.
I was close to tears, because it was getting late, and I didn't know what to do.
Ewan. Nakakatakot talaga pag di mo alam ang gagawin, at kung lahat ng naisip mo na options eh hindi puwede.

And so, with no clear thought in my head, I started walking.
It was late; it was dark and damp.
I was all by myself.
And I was crying.

Yes. Big, spoiled baby here was crying.
I just felt so stupid, so alone, and so LOST.

It was the worst feeling in the world.
Plus, it was humiliating to be walking around the streets of Makati with a stricken look on my face and tears streaming down my cheeks. :(

More unfortunate events happened after that. As in, kamalasan talaga.
As in, uwing-uwi na talaga ako, pero ang daming nangyayaring masama at lalong napapatagal pag-uwi ko.
Pero ayoko na mag-expound. Matutulog nalang ako.

That should officially end my bad day.
Para bukas eh panibagong araw na.



*wishing I could skip work tomorrow and mope.